while everybody else is scurrying towards their study desks, trying to make full use of every second left of these last few days before uni reopens, revising anything that needs revising, i on the other hand, simply spend my precious time idling away, sitting around on my laptop, enjoying good movies, and on top of that, reading page turning books. how easy breezy my life is.

there's an obvious reason why a study break is called such. we are supposed to work effingly hard before the break and when it's actually time to have some real break, we're not really supposed to be revising anything, right? i mean, dude, our brain needs some rest too. ever wonder why you stopped being creative? it's because you've been repressing it for far too long, studying your brains out. doesn't all study and no play make jack or whoever that is a dull boy? geez.

so i, avoiding my study desk and my piled up lecture notes, decided to finish reading this book that i bought like ages ago and it was just sitting in my bedside drawer in the company of other books that i haven't had time to even thumb through. the only books that i do have time to read are apparently all pharmacy related. i'm such a geek. i know that for a fact. so i decided to go out of my way and break the rules this once.

one of favourite past times is to eat a scoop of ice cream flooded with chilled mocha milk jot beautiful phrases down on a small notepad as i read along. it used to be like a revision thing for my high school english language exams but over time i've taken a liking for this thing. it's like my own personal heroine that gets me high and stoned. and yes, it's geeky but can i help it? no. besides, it's always been this longlife dream of mine to become a novelist or a writer someday. maybe someday. *but why the hell am i studying pharmacy, you might ask. that's to do with God. and i can't question His wills. He's simply just too powerful and mysteriously merciful. i know there's good in all of this. i might not see it now but He will show it to me eventually. i have faith in Him.*

this book outlines the story of a woman, travelling around the world, in her struggle to find the true meaning of life and the ultimate solution to the woes in her life. finally, i have somebody that i can be in the same boat with. but unlike her, i'm not involved in a relationship with anybody and i'm not travelling halfway across the world. i am simply constantly enveloped by recurring episodes of depression and sadness, and much like her, i'm trying my very best refraining myself from getting myself a prescription for antidepressants. drugs are my final resort. don't ever want to go down that road.

i have quite an assortment of friends, a huge collection of them but not a single soul knows the kind of things i have to shove up my sleeves to put a crooked smile on my face. it's either i don't trust them, or they're just too ignorant to even listen. i don't blame them. i'm not a good friend myself. never have a good opinion of my own friends. can't blame anyone for that. how my friends managed to put up with my tantrums all these years really is beyond me. i can't however thank them enough for sticking with me all this while. 

oh and if you had'nt noticed yet, i bought myself a ring! it just came in this morning and i'm loving it! my very own lucky star.

but i have issues with myself. ones that i don't think you'd understand.

hey ho people! assalamualaikum. hope we're all doing great on this beautiful day. insyaALLAH.

finally, i am already three days into my easter holidays (which will end in 6 days' time. urrgh) and life feels so good when there's no worrying about tests and exams. although i still have to do a little catching up on my studies but hey, i'm gonna take this one step at a time. this one week is apparently the only  time i have to sleep, eat, and breathe properly, come monday may 2nd, hell will break loose once again. haha. 

the last few weeks were the most torturous weeks i've  had so far. A because i had barely enough time for myself and B, i had to lock myself up in my room practically the whole day studying my brain out. oh God. how i managed to come out of it alive, beats me. anyway, during the previous weekend, i wriggled myself free from my studying routine and had a little getaway, or excursion with my friends to a place called MARGARET RIVER. don't ask me where that is, all i know it's situated somewhere in the western australian region. lol. my sense of direction is almost as bad as mr. bean's. mind you.

so we drove for as long as 3 hours to get to our friend's small cottage (i think?) and safely arrived there at around 2pm (i think? omg). then we headed out to some beautiful beach before continuing on our journey to the lighthouse. the views were simply breathtaking. never seen this side of australia before and i never thought i'd love australia so much. 

      *should've rotated this one bfore uploading it. darn* look at the crystal clear green water! i had to dip my foot in it and the water was just refreshingly cool. loved it.

            the light house. it's ancient, dude!

                                                                     aint we adorable? lol

                                         another beach we dropped by at sundown

that was on day 1. on the second day of our trip, we went deep into the woods to visit the lake cave. a huge cave with a shallow lake in it. it was beautiful. we went all the way down (a total of 3oo stairs) into the cave guided by the cave guide himself. going down was easy but when it was time to climb upstairs, my knees almost gave way. they were literally shaking. macam orang tua osteoporosis je rasa. haha.

                   bird's eye view of the cave. i was climbing down the stairs as i snapped this

                                one of the 'features' inside the cave. the hanging table.

                                    the only usable shot of the cave on my camera. :(

 

that's it for now.

pharmaceutics test : alhamdulillah. one down, four to go.

i had to post an entry. i knew i wouldn't be able to stay away from mr bloggie for long. i missed you!

do you think mr bloggie looks nicer now or the previous templates were a lot nicer to look at? doesn't matter anyway what you think (why did i even ask? geez), because it's my blog.

anuways, i've got immunology test coming up on monday at 3pm. definitely not going for the 1 pm lecture (anton's, definite no-no). immunology is interesting and honestly, i never thought i'd say this but i'd love to further my studies in vaccines. the studies of microbes, pathogens, so on so forth. mama, i'm sorry to disappoint you once more but i'm not going to be a practising pharmacist. my heart ain't into it, that's all. it doesn't suit my aggressive nature anyways. 

i've finished flipping through my lecture notes, and some videos too, you know, for better understanding. i'm not quite sure whether i'm ready enough for the test. how can you tell if you're ready anyway? tawakal je la. and supplicate a lot. that's all i can do now besides rereading my notes (oh yes, definitely).

haven't had the chance to chat with adik n abah n mama yet. lots of things need to get done. i am officially now a busy woman. thank you.

until then. be safe.