i called your cellphone my love, but you did not reply

woke up with a headache today. hmmph. i dunno what to think of these headaches that ive been getting for the past few months. if it's cancer, i should have another set of symptoms; nausea, vomiting, difficulty walking bla bla. well, two years ago i remember falling on the ground multiple times while playing ball. it hurt like hell, man! habis lebam tangan and paha aku do. time tu xde lagi sakit kepala like now. now, te headache is just a dull ache, it doesnt throb but its there, aching. paracetamol doesnt really work anymore, ibuprofen seems to be.......useless. the ache never really goes away. i mean, i started having double vision a couple months back, the optician said that i ahve astigmatism, that was it. told my brother about this and he urges me to get a CT scan. i'm just scared of the possibility that they might find something (eg a lump/tumour). aaaargh. i hope it's just regular tension headaches. otherwise my days would be numbered and i dunno how the hell would i cope with a dying thought.