i am not a quitter but sometimes..

at my lowest emotional level, i do break easy. by the way, salam dear reader. let's take a moment to thank ALLAH swt, for giving us another day to live. life is precious. make the best out of it and don't forget to remember ALLAH swt much in whatever we do.

mom is not around, called away on work again. abah too, but the only difference is, abah's coming home today and mom's not coming home until tomorrow. 

after sending off my big brother who was flying out to kl yesterday, with only five of us left at home, i just couldnt help but to cave in. now all i have is this sinking feeling in the pit of my gut, the feeling of loneliness.

alhamdulillah, i got the chance to see both my big brothers before i head back to perth where misery will surround me once again. i had a fantastic time in kl, travelling with my family, having good talks with my siblings. it was just awesome. i had a blast. after a long 9 months away from my loved ones, and now, i feel depressed at the prospect of going back again. i don't want to go back. *tula, gatal sangat nak study overseas kan. hambik ko*

time fleets. after next week, it's going to be a looong year for me. sigh.

dark clouds hovered above us yesterday, we lost a wonderful person . she was a mom to a very good friend of mine and  frankly she was close to being a mother to me too. she was there when my mom couldn't.

her words never failed to provide comfort to us all. always warm and welcoming.dearest, i am sorry for making you share your mom with me that day, if you'd still recall. i never got to thank her. she was indeed an amazing person, and although she succumbed to her ailment, she was a fighter, hands down. i wish you well on the other side of the world auntie, and i pray that ALLAH swt have mercy on you and place you among the mukminoons. amiin. rest in peace auntie, i'll miss you.