salam dear reader. how have we been? actually, how have i been lately? crying a hell lot of course no thanks to loneliness. honestly i miss the life that i've left behind. my family, my friends. i wish i could just fly back and forth from kelantan to perth everyday because hell, i miss them a lot.
i miss my besties. i miss us being all happy and carefree although we were about to face a huge exam (remember spm?), i miss how close we are as friends. truth be told, nobody here could replace you guys. i know i'm not much of a likeable person, and my popularity is close to zero but you guys became my friends nevertheless, and that's why i value you guys a lot. i miss YOU.
my family is my achilles heel. no matter where i go and how old i am, they're always on my mind. it's no wonder why right now, i swear i could die from homesickness. i miss mama, abah, adik adik. life would be coulourful and stressfree if only they were here with me. *knapa la gatal sgt nak study overseas?*
my best friend happens to be my own sister. she's the only soul who really understands me. my very own antidote.i miss you.
tomorrow marks the starting point of a long race. for more or less 4 months, i'll be struggling for my future. second year pharmacy is going to be tough and frankly, i'm more frustrated than scared. frustrated because apart from having nobody to actually talk to here, i am dead broke *duit makan pon x cukup* and most of all, i feel lonely. i miss my old life. ada satu masa siap berdoa kat Tuhan supaya dipertemukan jodoh, so he can take care of me, cheer me up when i'm sullen and most importantly, accompany me and be my best friend, in place of my besties. i wish he was with me but God knows where he is right now. honey, come fast, i need you.
been crying a lot lately and feeling insecure. feels as if there's someone tiptoeing behind me, waiting to jump on me. i don't know why that feeling is there. i feel unsafe. this place feels so empty and i'm on the verge of depression. strength is running low and i can barely pick myself up anymore.
i won't be writing for quite sometime now. lots of studies to do. but insyaALLAH, i'll write here again when the time is right. until then.
ps- duit macam xde nak baik winter nanti. :(
