salam dear readers. it's been two weeks since the semester started and i am constantly exhausted, not due to studies and assignments waiting to get done but by the amount of pressure i have to bear every single day i am here. saya sudah sesak nafas.
can i tell you something? do you want to know the one thing that i hate the most? hypocrites. friends who only seek you when they're in need of a helping hand but leave you hanging on a fine thread when you're n longer needed and i am honestly, a hypocrite magnet. wherever i go, aku dikelilingi manusia munafik.
bila susah, datang merayu mintak tolong, bila senang, siap wat muka lagi. pigidah. macam aku nak sangat kawan ngan ko manusia!
could you imagine, when you are walking quite close with your friends, and they bring up this idea of going to some ice cream parlour out loud enough for you to hear without you having to eavesdrop, but they dont even bother to invite you along. after all that you've done for them. the audacity! kalau ye pon, have the decency to at least ajak. aku x pernah lupe korg kalau aku ngan korg tapi sampai hati korang buat macam aku x exist je. blah la.
that day i helped bukan sebab korang. sebab Tuhan. kalau bukan, jadahnye aku nak tolong.
terasa ke baca entry ni? aku lagi terasa. korg buat aku macam sampah.
kalau korg xnak kawan ngn aku just say it out loud. aku pon bukannya teerhegeh hegeh nak kawan ngn korg.
ps- sorry that i had lash to out on you. saya menyampah and sesak nafas.i am not invisible.
