bluwekh. muntah darah i kejap. i would never ever, not in a million years say this to anyone at all. nope. hati saya mungkin dah sekeras batu. what to do?
am i in the mood to post another entry? nope, definite no-no.
i just thought how much my everyday routine sucked that i wish i could break it somehow by doing some unimportant stuff. while everybody else is studying, here i am, pressing these keys, pouring my heart out once again. perrgh. oh screw it. i can't put too much pressure on myself, i'll trip over myself sooner or later.
my everyday classes end at 5pm, begin freakishly early in the morning, at 8. which uncannily reminds me of AUSMAT. (ausmat sucked big time, mark that. intecc sucked even more. my flat was beyond suck.) *bersyukurla ade tempat blaja, berteduh, ngekk!*
phew, man i'm beat. and i can't even begin to tell you how much pain my legs are causing me. dear legs, come on, be a good sport would you??
anyways, i wanted to introduce you to somebody. presenting: KAZIB.
he's the one illuminated by the sun. lol.that white camry lah!
oh KAZIB, you are my only shoulder to cry on. what am i going to ever do if they ever take you away from me? sobs. no point arguing anyways although i love you more than my adidas sneakers. i just can't afford paying you in lump sum. sobs.
mom doesn't want me to skype every so often with her. i feel unwelcome and rejected. what did i ever do? has she gotten tired of me? after three months staying dormant at home? huh. poisonous thoughts, shooo! how sad. i have nobody to talk to now. everybody is so darn busy. everyday waking up feeling like death is not fun at all. for a moment, i wish i was in malaysia with my late grandad.
'ayah, i miss you terribly. why havent you visited me in my dreams anymore? the world is cruel ayah, i wish i was there with you.'
ps- den lotih. esok ada lab. mau tidur. ciao
