salam. suddenly found myself in a mood for another entry. it's monday right? it's a quarter to 12pm and i am still not prepping up for my 1 pm lecture. i'm not going anyway. i'm in my second year and this would be my first truant playing for 2011. my english is absurd, i know. but i just don't care. everybody speaks different sort of english, that's how i see it. and this is my way of speaking english.
so why did decide to skip today's lectures? simple. pharmaceutical analysis lecture today's going to be delivered by dr anton, a russian with a very thick russian accent. the moment he opens his mouth and the first word comes out, my brain starts kicking against my skull and i bid farewell to paying attention. my attention span at his lectures doesnt last more than 5 minutes. so might as well just skip the lecture if it's not gonna benefit me in any ways.
anton's lecture is a two hour. then at 3pm, it's andrew's, my immunology lecturer. he's not bad except for the fact that he speaks so darn softly that i always find myself straining my ears pretty hard to actually hear what he's saying. and by the time the lecture is over, i am most definitely left with a headache. he's a great immunologist but i'd rather read his lecture notes than listen to him talk about immunoglobulins. that's just how i feel.
thirdly, i hate crowds. they make me feel insecure. i hate walking through a sea of people. it's not enochlophobia i'd say. i'm not scared of them i just don't like being among them. i hate congestion, makes me feel like i'm suffocating or something. i prefer staying in my room, minding my own business, drving myself mad living alone thinking to myself.
fourthly, i need to do some solo studying. alone. no group discussion no nothing. i've still got tonnes of lecture notes to go through and time is not on my side. until then.
be safe.
ps- do pray for my mental and emotional wellbeing. i won't be able to handle another breakdown. i'm just way beat.
