hey ho. i know i have been on hiatus for far too long. not that i have avid readers or anything to explain myself to, but my sudden disappearance from the blogging realm might have startled some of you, my trusted friends. should i be sorry or apologise for that matter? dont really think so, because newsflash, it's my blog and i get to do whatever i want with it. but as a consolation, i do feel a little void after not writing for quite a while.
yes, i've been doing fine. had to take some time off to mend this little fragile heart of mine. cant believe the same thing that had befallen upon me a year ago happened once again very recently. shame on me for letting my defences down so easily. hmm.
do you ever get this feeling where you just want to avoid everybody and just feel like living in solitude, moping and feeling sorry for yourself? i do, all the freaking time and frankly, it's draining a lot of positivity out of me, injecting a double booster of negativity instead, sending my system into a downward spiral. i am just a dysfunctional, complicated person that i myself cant even begin to comprehend. dear self, what is it that you're really fighting for? why are you constantly screaming for help?
maybe i'll write again soon, maybe not. not that it's of any importance.
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| i told mama i didnt ever want to repeat a single semester in my course. thus, i'm busting my back studying 3 weeks b4 the finals. am i not a good soldier? |
until then, be safe.
ps- i won't tell a soul about YOU.
